why my mother is always right

i should never doubt the woman. she is comforting, wise, and loves and supports me unconditionally. i was having a pity party yesterday, and a doozy at that.
the things i know now to be true after our talk are that:

- i am afraid of a challenge. i would rather banish myself to a lifetime of mediocrity than possiblly suffer through a grand failure.

- if you have a defeatist attitude, you will always be defeated.

- i don't know what i want, and that is most of my problem.


anyways, those are my certainties. at least for today.

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